Wednesday, February 16, 2011

I want to take ownership...

So I've been noticing lately that I've been doing a terrible job at reaching out to people within Mission 28, and it saddens me that it's become a routine to me. I go and I hang out with the same people, I sing, I sit and listen to the message, and then hang out with the same people, and then go home. I notice that there is a lot of that going on lately too. It has really pricked a chord in my heart tonight and I've been really convicted...thinking back to how I felt the first time I ever went to a Big Meeting...how overwhelming it seems to walk into a place where everyone knows each other and no one knows me.
I feel like God is calling me to start making a difference...start changing the way I walk into Mission 28. If I want to see change in Mission 28, If I want to see God move in Mission 28, I've got to first change my own heart and start doing what God wants me to do before anything is going to happen within the whole of the group. I made the connection tonight...I don't have to be an intern to reach out to people, I just have to have a desire in my own life. The interns can't do it all...they can't reach out to everyone...it's up to me to take ownership and start living my life like a light. I want to reach out to people I don't know, talk to people throughout the week, greet new people as they come in, hang out with different people. I think if I really step up to do what God is calling me to do, then Mission 28 is going to look totally different to me. I think it will re-ignite the fire in my heart and hopefully, it will spread to everyone in Mission 28 and on UNCC campus...I want to take ownership of Mission 28 and start living my life more on fire for God. Change has to start within my own heart and life. "Be the change you want to see in the world." ~ Ghandi
You Won't Relent
Misty Edwards

You won't relent
Until You have it all
My heart is Yours

I'll set You as a seal upon my heart
As a seal upon my arm
For there is love that is as strong as death
Jealousy demanding as the grave
And many waters cannot quench this love

Come be the fire inside of me
Come be the flame upon my heart
Come be the fire inside of me
Until You and I are one

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Chelsey, this post was really convicting to me, thanks for sharing! I really desire to see this happen in M28 too, but it's so true, it has to start in my heart. So thank you for posting this. I can't wait to see what the Lord does!
- Lizzy

Cara said...

Reminds me of the song "I Refuse"... the songwriter had just witnessed a major flood in his hometown and so he was praying for God to send workers and money to help share His love by cleaning up and rebuilding. Then God said "I want to use you"
"I don't wanna live like I don't care.../Oh I refuse to/Sit around and wait for someone else/To do what God is calling me to do myself/Oh I could choose not to move/But I refuse" (Josh Wilson)